There are so many things in life I realize I have either missed out on or continue to miss out on because of my weight. One of those things was dating.
I never really dated in high school. There was some boys that would show me attention but it was normally negative attention. Even if I did get boys who were interested in me it was normally because they thought I was easy and desperate.
I suppose they were really the desperate ones if they had to look to the fat chick in homes of getting a little something from her. When all of my friends were going out on dates or having crushes on boys I was the one who sat in silence for fear of being asked about boys myself.
I didn’t want to put any boy in the weird position of knowing that I had a crush on him. I wouldn’t even let my mind think that way for fear nothing would come of it other than ridicule.
I remember having a crush on a football player. He was one of the nobodies in school. Even though he was in the team he wasn’t good and he wasn’t popular. I remember going to a pep rally and him making a point of sitting next to me. I know he knew I had a crush on him and in all honesty I think he felt the same way. We both knew it would never go anyplace but it was fun while it lasted. He would graduate a year before me and I would never see him again. It’s funny how things change and people change.
It is sad how we miss out on so much in life because of our weight. It’s really sad. I know that God puts us where we need to be when we need to be there, but it doesn’t change the fact that we sabotage so much of our lives with our weight. If we could only go back and start over. How do you think your life would be different?
Thinking about all that you are missing out on or have missed out on certainly gives you pause to think and just might give you a reason to make better decisions…