Tuesday, June 9, 2015

Help Me… Don’t Hurt Me!

Posted by Kody at Skinny Sized at Tuesday, June 09, 2015

This past weekend was a bit of a struggle for me because I felt a lot of pressure from someone around me who wanted to eat out at places that I knew I couldn’t eat out at.  There are just those places that you know are not a good fit for you or you know that with what you have already eaten this meal will just push you over. I was in a push me over situation. I knew that if I had lunch with her then added dinner later I would be way over in calories. I even offered to go with her and just not eat. It really wouldn’t have bothered me but she said if I wasn’t eating she wasn’t going. I know she meant well…

I didn’t give in … somehow I stood my ground but I felt bad about it. Not bad because I thought of myself first but bad because I could tell I hurt her feelings. I love this person very much but she doesn’t seem to get it when I say I just can’t.

I know it’s because she doesn’t want to change her life at least not right now. Maybe I should say I know she wants too but I don’t think she is ready too. There is a big difference. I disappointed her which made me sad but it made me even sadder that she doesn’t really seem to get it.


What sucks more than anything is that I really need her on board with me. She is very special in my life. Next to my husband she is my best friend. I know that she wants what is best for me but at the same time not if it’s going to interfere with what she wants. Does that make sense? Don’t’ get me wrong I get that, and I don’t resent it at all because I have been in her shoes. I just wish I could make her see that I am really trying ... again. 

I need her to help me not hurt me…

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