Monday, June 29, 2015

Week #2 of Stumbling Along...

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This is one of my favorite afternoon snacks!
Hi Everyone,

So needless to say the last two weeks have been an epic failure. As a matter of fact last week I hit the skidz! I am in such a dark and depressed mood that I had very little motivation to move any part of my body much less workout. My period was coming and did at the end of the week so that was part of it.

The other part was the heartaches of finding a job. I just wish someone would give me a chance. The fact of the matter is that I am a very loyal person and if you treat me right I will stick around. I haven’t had very many jobs in my life because I stay until the job runs out. I am a quick learner especially when it comes to computers but so far no one is very interested. I guess time will tell…

I plan to get back on it this week and feel better about myself. It’s been hard, and when hard time are sitting in it’s really hard to look forward and think positively. I know I have to in order to move on with my life. I think when life gets settled again things will get easier for me.
Microwave these for 20 seconds at a time for 1 minute to make awesome pepperoni chips! Love them!!

I wouldn’t normally reach out to strangers for a prayer but if you have in it you will you say a prayer that my husband and I find jobs quickly. Things don’t happen as fast as I would like them too, but nothing moves at the speed we want it to do they?
Well I am planning on weighing in when I wake up in a few hours so I will let you all know how that goes. I hope you are all doing well on your weight loss journey. If you know anyone doing a challenge I would love to join in. I feel like I need a support system to get involved with. Maybe that will give me the motivation I need.

I hope all is well for you all!!

Sunday, June 21, 2015

Week 3 Update... Disaster Zone! Watch for FAILING Objects!

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Sadly this past week was a miserable failure. I lost weight, not a lot, but some. I am not sure how. I would seriously be fibbing if I said it was even remotely good or that I was expecting a loss because I wasn’t. I have no clue how that even happened. I suppose I shouldn’t question it but I do.

I just don’t get it. You know what I mean. You have a horrible week and you lose and a great week and you don’t lose or gain. I swear the body plays terrible mind games with you.

I am so disappointed in myself. No matter what I did I just couldn’t get into it. The week was a mess. We had tropical storm Bill roll in on Monday and Tuesday. Wednesday was a sleep all day kind of day. Thursday my husband had two job interviews that I waited in the car for him while he was in there. Nope even after my husband living in this city for 10 years he is still not comfortable going to certain areas he is unfamiliar with. No biggy I didn’t mind the down time. Thursday was also his birthday then Friday we had another sleep all day sort of day. The week was not productive at all. A ton of rain, and humidity. No excuses just a fact! No blame except on myself. All I have wanted to do is eat this week.

My food was also terrible. One night we had Frito pies, one night pizza, and way WAY too many burgers! Well you get the point the list goes on. I am just embarrassed! I think what upsets me even more is the fact that my husband and I have been plans for Halloween and I would really love to wear a cute costume but the fact of the matter is that if I don’t lose weight I won’t get to wear anything cute again… so basically it comes down to either getting my shit together or losing out on another awesome thing that could happen…

On a bright note my husband bought me a polar heart rate monitor and one for himself too. We are both pretty excited about it. I am going to start using it today. I would love any feedback you might have.

Nothing has changed on the job front… I am still looking… shesh I feel like such a loser right now in all aspects of life! Oh well here is to a new week!!

Monday, June 15, 2015

Yep, So the Scale Says...

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As I reported Friday I knew the scale was going to show a gain because I was showing it Friday and weighing in on Saturday and sure enough there it was. I must admit at first I was a bit perplexed by the gain but the mystery was solved the more I thought about it. Although I stayed within my calories last week I didn’t eat the best calories at time. One day I had a breakfast sandwich from a fast food joint and a soda to the tune of 700 calories. I didn’t go over for the day but the fat and sugar were killer that day. One day my husband brought home pizza and so on and so on…. I haven’t had a soda since Thursday and have no intention of having one any time soon. I need to walk away from them… for good!

This week I hope to accomplish a lot! I have some projects in the mix that I need to get done with and a few I need to work on. I am still trying to find a job here in Houston, but I must admit it’s not going as easy and I had hoped. It’s pretty depressing to be honest with you. Not even one call last week, no responses, not even an email… so bummed… pretty depressing… I am just ready to move on with my life… if you are giving out jobs look here lol!

I don’t have much more than a few projects going on this week. We are going to be having some bad weather coming in tonight or tomorrow. We may be seeing a tropical storm. No big deal, not my first, or my last…

My Goals This week:
  • 100 ounces of water per day
  • Hit my calories 1550/ day no more.
  • No eating after midnight
  • Get more sleep
  • Get at least 1 hour of some sort of exercise per day
  • Accomplish things I need to get done around the house

Friday, June 12, 2015

Week #2 ALMOST in the Books!

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I really expected tomorrow’s weigh in to be a pretty good one. I didn’t go over my calories any day this week and I got in a few workouts. I even did my first two morning workouts which is huge for me.

I was really bummed when I decided to take a sneak peak at the scale this morning only to see that I had actually gained 1 pound. How the hell was that possible? I almost feel like a fool for looking because my desire to workout suddenly went down the drain when I saw the number. It really hurt to see it. I swear sometimes when I think I am having a bad week I lose and when I think it’s a great week I got or have a super small loss.

I started really thinking about a few things. The bathroom hasn’t been my friend this week. In other words I think I am retaining a lot of water. Also my husband brought home pizza but I didn’t eat over my calories. I did notice when I was putting the pizza into MFP that the pizza was extremely high in salt but I kind of wondering that was a typo. Now I am beginning to think that it was on point…

I watched my calories hard this week. I am stunned that I may see a gain. If I do … I do… I will be OK with it but it really throws me off the goals I thought I was going to be hitting. I suppose that it means I just have to work that much harder and start thinking thinks through a little more.

This weekend I have to do some birthday shopping for my husband. I have no clue what to get him but I have to find something his birthday is at the end of next week. I hope you all have some fun plans! It looks like it’s going to be raining all weekend and all next week… fun fun fun!! 

Wednesday, June 10, 2015

Weighting on Life Wednesday: Being a Joiner!

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There are so many things in life I realize I have either missed out on or continue to miss out on because of my weight. One of those things is joining in on life…

I know that sounds ambiguous but it’s really true. So much of my life I have allowed to slip away and not take part in because my weight was holding me back. I never joined in on anything because I was fearful of being judged. I didn’t think I had a chance at anything so what was the point?

I never joined any plays in school, never tried out for musicals, or anything athletic. Obviously sports were out for me. No one wants the fat girl trying to run around the bases. Plays and musicals were out too because I figured unless they were looking for a fat person they were not looking for me. I could never join drill team or cheerleading because I was fat I didn’t even date much in school because I wasn’t wanted. OK so I don’t know if I was wanted or not but I certainly would have given off the vive not to bother me. I had that protective thing going on.

It make me sad that I have allowed something that could so easily be changed (so to speak) alter my life so much…

I missed out on a lot so far in my life. Sadly, it continues today…  I miss out on things every day. I am looking forward to the day that my weight does not hold me back. I still have a long way to go but I will get there. I am ready to be happy and I am ready to be sit free from this cage of fat!

Thinking about all that you are missing out on or have missed out on certainly gives you pause to think and just might give you a reason to make better decisions… 

Tuesday, June 9, 2015

Help Me… Don’t Hurt Me!

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This past weekend was a bit of a struggle for me because I felt a lot of pressure from someone around me who wanted to eat out at places that I knew I couldn’t eat out at.  There are just those places that you know are not a good fit for you or you know that with what you have already eaten this meal will just push you over. I was in a push me over situation. I knew that if I had lunch with her then added dinner later I would be way over in calories. I even offered to go with her and just not eat. It really wouldn’t have bothered me but she said if I wasn’t eating she wasn’t going. I know she meant well…

I didn’t give in … somehow I stood my ground but I felt bad about it. Not bad because I thought of myself first but bad because I could tell I hurt her feelings. I love this person very much but she doesn’t seem to get it when I say I just can’t.

I know it’s because she doesn’t want to change her life at least not right now. Maybe I should say I know she wants too but I don’t think she is ready too. There is a big difference. I disappointed her which made me sad but it made me even sadder that she doesn’t really seem to get it.

What sucks more than anything is that I really need her on board with me. She is very special in my life. Next to my husband she is my best friend. I know that she wants what is best for me but at the same time not if it’s going to interfere with what she wants. Does that make sense? Don’t’ get me wrong I get that, and I don’t resent it at all because I have been in her shoes. I just wish I could make her see that I am really trying ... again. 

I need her to help me not hurt me…

Monday, June 8, 2015

Weight In Update!!

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Ugh look at those fat feet!

Hi guys!

Happy Monday! I hope you all had a really nice weekend! I have a nice and restful weekend. I didn’t do any workouts but I watched what I was eating regardless. I didn’t want to but I did.

I weighed in on Sunday morning with surprising results. I saw that I lost 5.2 pounds. I find that awesome because last week was the first week that I really concentrated on my food and water, and I even got a few workouts in. I am pretty happy!

Today was not the best day. I did fine with food but I didn’t do well with water at all. Honestly it was like I just couldn’t get it down. Some days will just be that way I guess. I didn’t even get close to my 100 ounces which is my daily goal. Last week I got it in every day.

I suspect that tomorrow will be a better day. There is a lot going on right now because I am trying to find a job. If anyone knows of a good job in Houston let me know. I am feeling a bit defeated.

I hope you all are doing really well. I am good and in a good place right now besides the job part of course. Happy week everyone!!

Friday, June 5, 2015

Week #1 ALMOST in the Books!

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Happy Friday everyone!

I hope you all had a wonderful week. My week went well although so far I have only gotten 2 workouts in. I am going to make it up this weekend with two days of hitting it hard. This week has been crazy! I have been staying busy looking for my first job in years. Going to school has been my job now it’s time to move on and move forward. I can’t wait!

My eating has been pretty good this week I have been counting my calories and drinking water like it’s going out of style. I have hit my 100 ounces of water each day! I love that and I am so proud of myself for it.

I had a nonscale victory yesterday that I am pretty proud of. I went to the store on the out of town. I have a 2 hour drive and I was starving. I looked all over the store for a snack. I didn’t want to get anything that was too high in calories or anything that would cause me too eat too much. I couldn’t get fruit because I had no way or washing it and I couldn’t get anything in a large bag because I was so hungry I would have binged. I ended up with a multi pack of 100 calorie almond snack packs. I HATE giving in and buying such things because they are such a rip off, and this one was too believe me, but I also know my weakness and sometimes you have to put your principals aside for your own wellbeing. The almonds did the trick! I had 1 pouch and I was good to go. They were very satisfying and delicious! I am very proud of my decision. They also have 4grams of protein which helps to satisfy the belly!

I do have some good news! I got a confirmation that my graduation was approved and my diploma is on the way. I can’t even begin to tell you how excited I am that I am officially I college graduate! Graduating was great but until final grades are in and until the school confirms it you are not a graduate!

This is my first week being 100% back on board and I must admit I am a little nervous about the weekend. These are the times that I fail miserably. The good news is that I don’t have anything bad in my house to each which makes it hard to fail when I am at home. The key to this week will be eating at home no matter what. Plus it’s a great way to save money!

Happy weekend ya’ll I hope you are all doing well. Is anyone up for a summer challenge or do you know of a challenge about to start. I would love to get involved. Let me know! I would love to get involved!!  

Wednesday, June 3, 2015

Weighting on Life Wednesday: Cute Clothes

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There are so many things in life I realize I have either missed out on or continue to miss out on because of my weight. One of those things is cute clothes…

Don’t get me wrong you can find some nice clothes that are cute for plus sized people but you can find so many more for smaller sizes. I have never been a clothes hound simply put because when you can’t find a lot of cute clothes then what is the point?

I don’t find pleasure in shopping …I actually hate it. I wear t-shirts and jeans daily because I don’t have to be creative and I don’t have to face the dressing room, mirrors, or tears. There is no feeling that could be more horrible than trying on a store full of clothes only to find out nothing fits. I don’t get any pleasure from shopping. I want to, I would love to, but it’s just not there.

I want to wear cute clothes not tents. I want to look nice and feel good about myself but as long as I have to wear plus sized clothes I see no point. I want to shop in all of those shops that line the halls of the shopping mall. I have never stepped foot in an American Eagle, Hollister, Gap, Express, A’Gaci, or the Limited. I never even look at them when I walk by because it makes me sad. I want to be able to go into those stores and shop.

I know that the only way I can ever shop at any of those stores is to lose weight. Even if some of them have plus sized clothing I will never know because I don’t want to wear there plus sized stuff I want to wear their normal sized clothing. I want to feel normal and look normal. I want to fit in like everyone else.

Thinking about all that you are missing out on or have missed out on certainly gives you pause to think and just might give you a reason to make better decisions… 

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