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Thursday, April 2, 2015
Posted by Kody at Skinny Sized at Thursday, April 02, 2015
I think it really hit me Wednesday night how miserable I am. I am so miserable with just about everything in my life. My family aside might I add....
I have a lot of trama coming up in the next 6-18 weeks and I am starting to feel extremely overwhelmed. I graduate in 6 weeks then start looking for a job, then I am moving after that. Then let's top it off with school in general and weight loss is the icing on the cake.
I have been having a horrible time sleeping because I feel like the walls are closing in on me. I know there is nothing I can do but take it one step at a time but there are still times that I can't turn my brain off so that I can sleep. I guess I feel like my security blanket is coming to an end. I am excited and terrified at the same time.
I think my biggest issue of everything is being unhappy with myself. I just can't seem to get myself back on track and in control. I keep thinking I have to come up with a plan and stick to it. I have even been debating Weight Watchers again ugh! I am really not sure on that one... I feel like every day is an internal battle that I am losing when all I want to do is win and win big! I have been really grumpy with my family especially yesterday. Once again when you are unhappy with yourself you take it out on others and I feel terrible for that. I need to work on myself right now and get it together.
Just thinking outload. I hope all is well with you all...
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