I am in a bad place in so many ways, but more than anything I can’t seem to get my mind into this. I want to lose weight I do … I just can’t seem to get focused and just do it. I have done so well in the past then I pissed it all away.
My heart is breaking because I have no control. I don’t even know what is wrong with me but clearly something is…. If you want it so bad then why can’t it happen? Why hasn’t it happened? Why do you let anything at all stand in the way of your dream?
Your dream to wear cute clothes, shop in stores for normal people, and be able to swim in a swimsuit. My goodness you love to swim almost as much as you like to breath yet here you are letting it all come to an end. *BOOM*
You say you want a baby so bad you can taste it, well… the problem with that is time is running out, the clock is ticking, and soon that dream will come to an end. One of your dream will then never ever come true and ONLY because you never allowed it to happen. Why won’t you change, why can’t this happen? Don’t doing this to yourself!